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“As soon as I take time off, I get sick.” The sentence I hear from business owners more than almost any other.

By Alissa Smajilovic · 6 min read

First day off. The calendar is empty. Your phone is silent. You are in bed. It is so reliable that you already pack throat lozenges.

“As soon as I take time off, I get sick.” I hear this sentence from business owners more than almost any other. Usually told in passing, half as a joke, as though the body were simply a bit sensitive. Hardly anyone takes it seriously because it feels like bad luck. The plane. The air conditioning. The children always bring something home.

Let's be honest about the numbers for a moment. If rest reliably ends in illness, you have no rest. Your year knows only two states: performance and collapse. The breaks in between are not breaks. They are repairs. The exhaustion is never released. It is postponed until an entirely normal working month is enough to tip the system.

This is not a sensitive body. It is a precise one.

Thoughts often follow. “I am simply prone to getting sick.” Or: “It always gets me.” Typical. Fine all year and sick on the first day off.

The phenomenon has a name: leisure sickness. It is not weakness. It is a rather impressive emergency programme. As long as the pressure stays high, your body keeps everything up. It releases stress hormones, the substances that make you alert, fast and less sensitive. It postpones anything that would stop you now, including getting sick. When the pressure drops, the programme ends. Everything that was postponed arrives at once. The collapse on the first day of your holiday is not a malfunction. It is the bill for the months before. Your body waited until you could afford to pay it. That is not dysfunction. It is consideration.

What I look at first

When a client tells me this, I check three things.

First, strategy. A business that runs only on constant tension has a design problem: no buffers in the calendar, no handovers, no week with room at the edges. Rest is not built into a system like this. It is the leftover. Whatever remains when everything else is done. Everything else is never done.

Then, identity. When your value is tied to performance, rest feels like losing value. It gets postponed, minimised and filled with work until the body enforces it. Doing so during a holiday is almost logical. It is the only appointment the body gets.

Then, capacity. This is where the core of this pattern sits. Being able to recover is a skill. It is not a given. A system that ran on tension for years may initially be unable to relax. Relaxation can even feel unsafe because the state is unfamiliar. Capacity therefore means both: being able to face what comes with growth AND being able to recover from it. The second part is almost always forgotten. It is exactly what is missing in this pattern.

What this looks like in my work

I know this bill from the inside. During the period when I was building most visibly, my body waited until I had created some distance. Then it caught me there: tingling in my face, panic attacks, right in the middle of the project that was supposed to give me space. That was when I understood that rest is not something you simply take. It is something a system needs to learn again. Today, this is a core part of my work: building the ability to recover in small doses and in the middle of the working week. BEFORE the body demands it by force. Not as wellness on top. As a component of the business.

If time off reliably makes you ill, the honest question is not how to protect yourself better or become tougher. It is what your business is built around that makes rest possible only at the limit, what rest means to you and what your system needs to become capable of it again. That is what I work out with women. Preferably long before the next holiday.

I work at exactly this intersection: strategy, identity and capacity as one system. You can see what that looks like under Solution Design. Whether it fits is something we can work out in conversation.

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This text reflects my perspective and my work. It is not medical or therapeutic advice and does not replace medical or psychotherapeutic treatment. I do not diagnose. Where needed, I refer clients to qualified professionals.